Tick Tock…. Tick Tock….
Jul 26th, 2009 by B.C.A.
If you already know the ending can you prevent it from happening? Can you change it? Or are you only able to temporarily prevent the inevitable? And is attempting to prevent the inevitable a form of foolish ignorance?
What keeps the clock ticking?
Relationships are time-bombs waiting to explode. It takes time to get close enough to another person for them to have the capability to deeply hurt and severely disappoint you, and it takes time to heal. It takes time to forgive but yet time is not forgiving. It is always the unwanted variable. It engulfs and encages every moment of our lives.
Relationships consist largely of perseverance, persuasion, and promising progression. We attempt to persevere through the problems, we persuade the other to agree with our views and wants, and we promise that in time things will be ok.
How many times do we make ourselves travel down the same weary road? We already know what we will find at the end- a dead end. Yet we make the journey down that same road time and time again expecting to find something different. When we don’t, when we find that same dreadful dead end, we have to turn around and walk the lonely and heart breaking journey back. Why do we do this to ourselves? Why? Why don’t we just choose a different road to take? I do not desire to be everything to everyone, but I would like to be something to someone.
“It is easy to fall in love but hard to find someone who will catch you.” Anonymous
I’m not saying I want to erase any of my bad relationships…. because A. that simply is not possible and B. I’ve never been in a relationship where I didn’t truly care for the other person… the problem is they just always haven’t cared for me the same way.
Sure it’s not the same exact road…. the scenery changes with every season… but there is that dead end…. Sure not all relationships have to end that way…. but they typically do.
Yes, I’ve learned a lot… Yes, I’m grateful for that… but that doesn’t mean it doesn’t hurt.
I feel it too, *hugzz*
Hope you find that someone to catch you soon.
God Bless you!